the world is cute.
enjoy it.

random thoughts
i'm here in the lib, bumming around waiting for my sundo. it's freezing in here..but it's better than hot weather...hateful..unless i'm at the beach.

random thoughts here we go:

the school year's almost over. :(

peja stojakovic for ron artest trade: kings get the better part of the deal.i hope this move puts them in a better position to fight for a playoff spot. i hope ron artest won't be a headache anymore.

i'm missing mi bebe. she's bonding with niq and teddi now. i miss you...a friday without you by my side is weird and lonely...i miss you.

i've got a lot of things to do...IS analysis paper and reflection paper, study for philo orals, work on comm group paper, theo collage project, history thesis proposal for group reporting, and feb 7 long test for social psychology. hayyyyy buhayyy..who ever invented studying...hehe...

i'm sleepy, i want to rest...but i'm still in school. oh well...

i want to watch a lot of movies...as the years go by the quality of movies is getting much better.

i love you kat. i love you. 1 year and 8 months and counting. i love you *12*

WITH COMPLETE SINCERITY
As i watch this night unfold before me, as i eagerly wait for 3 hours before the most beautiful day of each month arrives, i am both happy and scared.

let me start with the 'scared'...

scared - because i have done a lot of immature things, stupid things that result to kalabuan which do not really make everything okay. because i am scared to lose a special part of my life. because one more mistake could really axe it. because one more mistake could really put me in anger with myself... scared because i don't want to be JUST A PHASE..just someone who would enter and then leave...because losing one of the many reasons why my life is so beautiful would be one of the most painful moments i will ever experience..i don't want to lose you. ever.

happy - because 1 year and 7 months in a few hours time just gives me thoughts of how much we've been through - all the experiences we've had, all the problems..yet here we are still standing. because i am committed to someone who is worth every moment, every smile, every tear, every second...because it is a wonderful feeling that someone loves me truly and completely...because i have found someone who has enhanced my life in so many ways. because i have someone who never fails to show me how much she loves me. because she is one of the many reasons why my life is so beautiful. because she chose me...because she chose me..because she chose me.

life is really beautiful...even if sometimes we don't understand why we encounter such problems..such trials and challenges... but i will be strong. and i hope the same goes for her.

happy 1 year and 7 months in a few hours bebe. :) i love you so much *12*


i don't want to lose you.



ever.


*12*

happy and i know it *12*
yep.




i am really really happy.




and no one can mess with us. *12* :)

i don't want no drama...
some people just can't understand.


and it sucks i can't confront them.


i'm just a powerless guy right now.


pfft.

uhhhh...
i still have that sucky feeling from yesterday. to know that some people were talking about you, like they didn't want you there..like they hoped u weren't there out of respect for the desperate-sounding asian boy from the north who doesn't seem to give up, who made sure i heard his song 'she's gone' to know that he's lost the battle (but there is no battle...i've been the guy for 17 months..why the big frustration weirdo?), who made sure his emotions were widely felt by the crowd, who made sure i got that awkward feeling..still, i didn't gang up on him. i'm a good boy. i don't start fights...

..yeah he teamed up with that person who surely wished i wasn't around yesterday..so asian boy from the north could have had the chance steal some time.

i'm a singit huh...

...that's what you think, weirdos...

i guess i'm that hurt...frustrated, hurt..it doesn't feel good to be disrespected like that...i'm trying to get everyone's approval without showing off and by just being me, and this is what i get from some of them...i don't know what to do anymore...but i guess that's life...you can't please everybody...

..okay, i'll just cry...

..out.

....
i woke up from an afternoon nap and my head started to hurt...

i miss you
*12*

my head still hurts...darn it...