Stroll...

the world is cute.

2006-02-15T16:18:00.000+08:00

enjoy it.

random thoughts

2006-01-27T16:20:00.000+08:00

i'm here in the lib, bumming around waiting for my sundo. it's freezing in here..but it's better than hot weather...hateful..unless i'm at the beach.

random thoughts here we go:

the school year's almost over. :(

peja stojakovic for ron artest trade: kings get the better part of the deal.i hope this move puts them in a better position to fight for a playoff spot. i hope ron artest won't be a headache anymore.

i'm missing mi bebe. she's bonding with niq and teddi now. i miss you...a friday without you by my side is weird and lonely...i miss you.

i've got a lot of things to do...IS analysis paper and reflection paper, study for philo orals, work on comm group paper, theo collage project, history thesis proposal for group reporting, and feb 7 long test for social psychology. hayyyyy buhayyy..who ever invented studying...hehe...

i'm sleepy, i want to rest...but i'm still in school. oh well...

i want to watch a lot of movies...as the years go by the quality of movies is getting much better.

i love you kat. i love you. 1 year and 8 months and counting. i love you *12*

WITH COMPLETE SINCERITY

2005-12-11T21:10:00.000+08:00

As i watch this night unfold before me, as i eagerly wait for 3 hours before the most beautiful day of each month arrives, i am both happy and scared.

let me start with the 'scared'...

scared - because i have done a lot of immature things, stupid things that result to kalabuan which do not really make everything okay. because i am scared to lose a special part of my life. because one more mistake could really axe it. because one more mistake could really put me in anger with myself... scared because i don't want to be JUST A PHASE..just someone who would enter and then leave...because losing one of the many reasons why my life is so beautiful would be one of the most painful moments i will ever experience..i don't want to lose you. ever.

happy - because 1 year and 7 months in a few hours time just gives me thoughts of how much we've been through - all the experiences we've had, all the problems..yet here we are still standing. because i am committed to someone who is worth every moment, every smile, every tear, every second...because it is a wonderful feeling that someone loves me truly and completely...because i have found someone who has enhanced my life in so many ways. because i have someone who never fails to show me how much she loves me. because she is one of the many reasons why my life is so beautiful. because she chose me...because she chose me..because she chose me.

life is really beautiful...even if sometimes we don't understand why we encounter such problems..such trials and challenges... but i will be strong. and i hope the same goes for her.

happy 1 year and 7 months in a few hours bebe. :) i love you so much *12*

i don't want to lose you.

ever.

*12*

happy and i know it 12

2005-12-07T21:28:00.000+08:00

yep.

i am really really happy.

and no one can mess with us. *12* :)

i don't want no drama...

2005-11-09T19:02:00.000+08:00

some people just can't understand.

and it sucks i can't confront them.

i'm just a powerless guy right now.

pfft.

uhhhh...

2005-11-06T17:19:00.000+08:00

i still have that sucky feeling from yesterday. to know that some people were talking about you, like they didn't want you there..like they hoped u weren't there out of respect for the desperate-sounding asian boy from the north who doesn't seem to give up, who made sure i heard his song 'she's gone' to know that he's lost the battle (but there is no battle...i've been the guy for 17 months..why the big frustration weirdo?), who made sure his emotions were widely felt by the crowd, who made sure i got that awkward feeling..still, i didn't gang up on him. i'm a good boy. i don't start fights...

..yeah he teamed up with that person who surely wished i wasn't around yesterday..so asian boy from the north could have had the chance steal some time.

i'm a singit huh...

...that's what you think, weirdos...

i guess i'm that hurt...frustrated, hurt..it doesn't feel good to be disrespected like that...i'm trying to get everyone's approval without showing off and by just being me, and this is what i get from some of them...i don't know what to do anymore...but i guess that's life...you can't please everybody...

..okay, i'll just cry...

..out.

....

2005-10-31T18:56:00.000+08:00

i woke up from an afternoon nap and my head started to hurt...

i miss you
*12*

my head still hurts...darn it...

THOUGHTS

2005-10-29T23:30:00.000+08:00

happy happy happy happy happy

*12*
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*12*

home alone

2005-10-28T16:25:00.000+08:00

yeah, i woke up around 1pm today and realized i was home alone. yup no one's here except for the maid. gloomy day..no sun...maybe it's going to rain..

yeah.

good afternoon.

out.

STRIKE TWO

2005-10-28T00:09:00.000+08:00

Strike two ka na pare.

Dude, you're already strike two.

you just don't know it yet.

the road....

2005-10-27T15:34:00.000+08:00

the road's sweet. no traffic. green means go.

it's still gloomy outside. rainy weather. cold. i like it. i like it a lot.
before you know it, it's second sem already and we'll be having our hands full with all the new school work we'll be putting up with. yeah, speed. ateneo speed. new memories right? cool.

bebe, we'll have new memories to share. last sem mo na.. i love you. yeah..i really do.

random thoughts:
some people are just irritating. know-it-all people.
hindi ako plastic. pag asar ako sayo, paparamdam ko kahit hindi ganon kahalata. just a fact. hehe.
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i love you kat. :) *12*
nov. 12... 18 months. :)

NO TITLE IN MIND. COME TO THINK OF IT, I JUST PUT A TITLE.

2005-10-26T18:37:00.000+08:00

it's been awhile since i last updated this blog from time to time. i had a phase wherein i'll update my blog after a few weeks, even months. now, i update my blog more often. is that a good thing? i don't know..'cause it may be out of boredom. it may be because i'm already using the computer, so why not update my blog? or it may be because i really want to update my blog because i want to say stuff.

sembreak's not fun...it's a hindrance to some things.
sembreak's fun...no schoolwork to worry about.
sembreak's not fun...my body clock is not fun. i'm having a hard time sleeping.
sembreak's fun...well, mainly because there's no school.

i need a smile right now. really.

amazing race mamaya.

um...

..out.

the night is still young

2005-10-25T22:28:00.000+08:00

yeah, i've got nothing to do.

freaking boring.

tulog nalang tayong lahat.

random thoughts

2005-10-24T20:36:00.000+08:00

i had nilagang baka and torta for dinner kanina.. yeah sarap..

my sister is scared of how johnny depp looks in 'charlie and the chocolate factory.' heck, he looks like annie lennox dba?

i miss the blue sky. *wink*

stop being sweet and all..trying to make moves and all...don't irritate me.

some dreams are just irritating. pati ba naman sa dreams sumusulpot ka... trying to make moves pa rin...

lonely day, how i wish you were here with me *12*

i love it when the sky is blue. *wink*

i'm just trying to be better..to be the best that i can be...

pinoy big brother is pretty much the show most people are watching right now.

kung ano man yung kayabangan mo, wala na tayong magagawa kung mahangin ka talaga.

i miss you *12*

1 year and 5 months...speechless...we're not gonna stop *12*

alright..that's it for now.

....

2005-10-20T19:50:00.000+08:00

weirdo.

yeah, weirdo.

daming weirdo sa mundo.

friday? do i hear a friday?

2005-10-19T21:16:00.000+08:00

come on.

do i hear a friday????

"friday."

good good...

'cause it's friday in two days and i can't wait. :)
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what did i do today? pretty much bummed at home.. yeah... all day...oh well.. when friday comes it's going to be a change of scenery for me..wooohoooo..oh yeah...

i miss....

mi bebe. *12*

my electric guitar...it's broken right now.

friends.

high school classmates.

clark our dog nung cute pa sya..naaawa nako sa kanya. damn that galis.

watching NBA. dbale..ilang araw nalang.. go kings!

having a great random number cause for next sem ang pangit ng random # ko... 129 :(

yung honda civic namin dati na binenta na ni dad before this school year started.. boohoo...

drinking root beer...na bottomless.. hehehe...

..mi bebe. i miss you *12* i love you :)
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bumming the day away

2005-10-16T14:27:00.000+08:00

i woke up at around 1230pm today...got tired from a battle of the bands gig last night which was really fun. it was my band's first ever gig talaga, as in real gig..and to be 2nd place was a very surprising feat for us. it could be a stepping stone, who knows... thank you for all the people who came there to support my band, 3 day silence.

thank you bebe. thank you speples. thank you ccf friends. chuck, thank you for the opportunity. next time, you come and sing for us dude. you know you're part of our band. :)

as you get older, you get to see life in a much different perspective. life would look bigger to you, seeing the complications and challenges it puts in front of you everyday. life is hard to decipher; yet it's exciting to go through life, especially when you have someone whom you want to share the journey with. when you have that significant other, your whole perspective on life and the future changes. it's a decision you would have to stand up for. it's a decision you have to fight for, no matter how difficult the trials can be sometimes. i stand up for my decision. i fight for my decision. i'm happy with my decision. she is a part of my life now; i share the journey of life with her. loving someone is one of the most beautiful feelings in the world. relationships don't always seem happy and fun; there are problems that will come up, trials..challenges..hey that's part of it..that's what makes a relationship even more beautiful; it gives the two of you the chance to deal with those challenges with the love you give to each other. it gives meaning to being committed to someone. it gives meaning to love. nothing in this life is certain, but anything's possible, and i would want to make the possible a reality. it's all about standing up and fighting for what you have committed yourself into.

i've said too much. i think it's gonna rain. it's dark outside.

i love you.

*12*

waiting patiently

2005-09-07T06:48:00.000+08:00

5 days to go. :)

*12*

all about the smiles

2005-09-05T08:41:00.000+08:00

i haven't been regualrly updating my blog but i have time today so i might as well update.

i'm the the computer lab right now here in school, specifically in ctc. kat's in class right now, and i'm just a few steps away from her classroom; yeah, her classroom's right beside the computer lab. i miss her. yeah..i love her so much. :) later i have a report in i/o psych..goodluck talaga. kaya yan..hehe!

i love you kat. i love every moment i spend with you. :)

thank you for always showing me how much you love me.

thank you for everything, for all the adventures, the bondings, everything, everything.

i love you. :) malapit na mag september 12. :) happy 16 months! i love you. *12* :)

Thoughts...

2005-08-20T21:58:00.000+08:00

tuesday 4:00 pm: philo orals. yeah... pretty much my first ever philo orals. i don't know what to do with the thought. study? i have to. easy to comprehend? nah. that's philo. blurry in nature but when you put your mind to it...you'll see what it's trying to say clearly. if not clearly, then a little better than blurry.

my girlfriend told me her thoughts on death: "love all you can 'cause that's the only thing that will stay when you're already gone." death...we'll all know what it feels like someday.

i love you. you just make me the happiest person alive. no turning back. *12*

if there's no class on monday...then there's no class on monday.

*12*

12

2005-07-21T22:25:00.000+08:00

Akin ka.

Sa'yo ako.

Ang saya ng mundo.

the song

2005-06-30T22:20:00.000+08:00

"You And Me"

What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
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thoughts

2005-06-27T21:33:00.000+08:00

i can never control what you want in your life.

i cannot stop you from finding your being human in your decisions.

i may not be your first priority, and i'm not asking you to make me your first priority.

i respect whatever decision you have, but all im asking from you is that assurance that what we have will be protected and that no matter what happens, you'd come back for me.

i don't see myself as a good enough reason for you to stay here...

..but i still have hope, even if you're not changing your mind anymore... i still have hope...

stains

2005-06-21T23:43:00.000+08:00

i hate stains. especially if they have been there for more than a year and you can't seem to get'em off. sometimes, i don't know what to do. sometimes, i go crazy just thinking about that stain... i hate it, honestly... but i just want it to go away. please go away. can't you go away...? why can't you leave us alone..? why do i always expect your unexpected presence..? why do you always show up...? did you really quit? or are you just trying to mess things up...? don't piss me off...i'm a good person.. i don't wanna have a fight with you.

...i feel better now..but i'm still not okay.. just better..much better...

tomorrow is another school day.

*12*

life is like a mango..random thoughts

2005-06-13T22:20:00.000+08:00

life is like a mango.

mango is like life.

life is beautiful.

like what the song says...

..each day is valentine's day.

do i make sense here? well i guess i do get what i just said. sorry if you can't grasp what i really want to say.

well..tomorrow is the start of another school year. yes it's back to school.

i miss the rain.. it was so hot kanina... rain...come back...

i'm sporting my long hair again... i don't wanna cut my hair short muna. rockstar image na toh...

i wanna lose weight na... summer made me pig out a lot...

i love you.. *12*

thinking

2005-06-12T18:17:00.000+08:00

i can't believe it. two days from now, i'm back to spending most of my time in school. summer's over..rainy season just started...indeed, time flies by so fast.

a while ago, i was looking at my pictures, 5-7 years ago...so not nice. so not flatterinng. oh well...haha.

it's back to those thick books...those surprise quizzes...those hectic long tests and projects..those reports that would kill my sleeping hours...those papers...papers... thesis..papers.....but i'm cool. easy as pie.

Happy 12 kat! *12*
i miss you. i love you *12*

badtrip

2005-06-08T14:31:00.000+08:00

i hate it pag sumasablay ako.

i'm hating myself right now...

..i do care. i'll be careful with the tone of my voice next time...

that four letter word

2005-06-07T23:55:00.000+08:00

"Love is a force more formidable than any other. It is invisible - it cannot be seen or measured, yet it is powerful enough to transform you in a moment, and offer you more joy than any material possession could."

very true.

*12*

home alone

2005-06-07T17:10:00.000+08:00

when i woke up this morning, i realized i was home alone. yup. my family was not home. uhuh. how lonely. it was really a sad feeling.

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A ROCKSTAR'S CRY

rock my soul.. and the soul will rock.
'cause when it's your time to shine, don't say "i suck".
rock my soul.. and the soul rocks hard.
you're just glad you entertained. no need for a big reward.
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i miss you. *12*

now comes the night...

2005-06-06T18:55:00.000+08:00

When the hour is upon us
And our beauty surely gone
No you will not be forgotten
No you will not be alone

And when the day has all but ended
And our echo starts to fade
No you will not be alone then
And you will not be afraid
No you will not be afraid

When the fog has finally lifted
From my cold and tired brow
No I will not leave you crying
And I will not let you down
No I will not let you down
I will not let you down

Now comes the night
Feel it fading away
And the soul underneath
Is it all that remains
So just slide over here
Leave your fear in the fray
Let us hold to each other
Till the end of our days

...
love the feeling of having faith in something that will last forever. nothing is impossible.

*12*

...

2005-06-06T11:57:00.000+08:00

just got home from enlisting my classes for the 1st semester this school year. i got the sched that i really wanted, thanks to my wonderful random number: 28. yeah!

it's pretty bring here at home.. got nothing to do... i'm so bored...

i don't wanna go to school yet. on the other hand, ok lang din naman na pumasok na. my sched's okay naman so i'm not hating this sem. yup..

i miss you Kat. *12*

random thoughts...

2005-06-02T12:46:00.000+08:00

rain.. i love the rain... i don't like hot weather... rain, come...

school's about to start.. here we go again.. oh no... thesis...

the phoenix suns lost... grrr... go miami...

i just wanna be the best for you..all the time... i hope you're always happy with me... *12*

i like to move it, move it...

i need to lose weight... when will i drop to 140???? when??? when???? c'mon... kaya toh...

care for a wild adventure? i do.. i want to... soon...

i miss you, i love you, i miss you, i love you... *12*

i'm hoping to be your first and last.. stay strong with me bebe... *12*

i love sleeping... actually i love lying down and looking at the ceiling.. kakasenti...

...don't leave me...please

*12*

summer stroller...

2005-03-24T19:59:00.000+08:00

hey hey hey... summer's been pretty boring. hahaha. what have i been doing? eat, sleep, tv, eat, eat, tv, sleep, tv, tv, eat, eat.. yeah.. i'm pigging out and it's so frustrating. i've already bought 4 dvds - million dollar baby, before sunrise, hitch, and ray. here are my thoughts on those movies:

million dollar baby - sad movie. very deep. but it was a classic one.

before sunrise - i had to watch it 'cause i didn't want to watch before sunset yet. what can i say about the movie? interesting. full of conversations. but it was good. classic movie.

hitch - funny, entertaining, yet shallow. i don't know. not that nice but it was okay.

ray - i have to give jamie foxx props. great actor! great movie.

now i need to buy new dvds... waaaaaaah! weird.. i'm such a bum... always eating at home. oh well...

i miss kat.. she's in davao right now.. we were texting kanina.. i miss her sooo much... come back home safely okay? i love you... *hug*

i miss my brother.. he's in Basilan right now...

i miss school.. yeah.. i do miss it..

i miss the speples... see you all soon..!

oh well.. i hope you guys are having fun this summer! sulitin nyo na. hehehe!

if there's a wheel... there's a car. :)

*12*

summer mode na

2005-03-16T23:30:00.000+08:00

i'm practically done with school na. no more exams to take. yeah.. it feels great. hehehe. wala lang. yun lang.

yeah!!!!!

wala lang. have a great summer everyone :)

i love you kat! :)

*12*

ALERT:

2005-03-14T19:25:00.000+08:00

JEFFREY MARK SALONGA LUCAS! MAG-ARAL KA NA!!!!! hehehehehehe :)

*12*

THE LAST FEW DAYS OF SCHOOL

2005-03-11T09:16:00.000+08:00

Come on. Kaya toh. YEAH!!!!!!!!!

Thank you Lord at exempted ako sa theo finals.. :) yeah!

Polsci and Psych nalang... miracles do happen.

*12*

SURVEY....

2005-03-07T17:37:00.000+08:00

DESCRIBE:
1. your room
- puro bags..i don't sleep there kasi. may study table.. may tv.. yung wallpaper blue

2. your cellphone
-isang 7650 and isang 3350..

3. your boyfriend/girlfriend
-the best. i love her.

4. your parents
-i'm a mama's boy. my dad's makulit. my mom looks so young kahit 50+ na sha.

5. your dream house
-simple lang.

6. your favourite colours
-black, brown, green, yellow, purple

7. person that you hate
-none.

8. your dream car
-um jaguar. hehehe. pero RAV4 tlaga.

9. the school you are going to
-ateneo

10. things you hate about your life
-siguro i hate the hardships of life but God has His reasons so ayos lang.

11. things you love about your life
-family, girlfriend, friends, blessings, adventures :)

12. your bestfriend
-my girlfriend.

13. pet that you have / you want to have -
-i have a doggie. name's Clark. cute cute Clark.

14. person that you miss the most
-grade school and high school friends.

15. your kitchen
-maliit lang. puro pagkain. yumyum!

16. your backyard
-wala eh..
17. your wallet
-pang-girl. pink wallet. hehe.

18. your favorite brand
-of what?

19. your current hair cut
-long hair..retro type.

20. clothes you are wearing right now -
-white shirt, shorts, slippers

21. your desktop background
-si peja stojakovic, player ng Sacramento Kings.

22. the weather outside
- cold..i like it.

IBA NAMAN
1.cno mdalas mong ksama sa skul?
-kat. speples.

2.ano pnaka ayawmong subject?
-this sem? ECO and POLSCI.

3.ano gnagwa mo pag wla tcher nyo?
-bond with kat..either kasama ko sha or katext ko sha.

4.ano gnagawa mo pgkatapos ng klase? -
-hang out in sch nang sandali, eat and bond with kat, uwi na.

5.may crush ka ba sa skul nyo?
- yeah

6.ano pkiramdam pag nakikita mo crush
mo? wala. pagnakita ko edi nakita ko. pero walang kilig feeling or anything like that.

7.bkt mo sha naging crush? - maganda.

8.my gf/bf ka na ba? - yes and she's the best. i love her.

9.pwde ko bang malaman name ng crush
mo? - too many to mention.

10.ano na ggawin mo pgkatapos mong
sagutan ito? mag-aaral na.

11.cno kasama mo ngaun? wala.

MAIBA TAYO
1.WAT IS UR PREFERABLE NAME? - i like my name na eh. pero gusto ko rin sana yung family name ko nalang yung first name ko.. Lucas. :)

2. R U BORED? - stressed.

3.HOW IS UR LIFE NOWADAYS? stressful dahil sa sch. but my life is still beautiful. adventurous and blessed. :)

4. MALE BEST FRIENDS? jino ignacio, mikko santos, jake puno, aoo felipe but nowadays we hardly talk.

5.FEMALE BEST FRIENDS? my girlfriend, my mom, my sister, my apos

7.D LONGEST CONVERSATION ON D PHONE?
-kat.

8. WHAT SONG IS APPLICABLE 2 YOU RYT
NOW?
- not enough vitamins

9.FREND (S) U MISS?
-grade school and high school buddies

10.WAT IS IN UR MIND RIGHT NOW?
- ang dami kong gagawin this week.

11.WAT R U LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
-wala.

12.DO U THINK LIFE IS UNFAIR?
- i can't help but think that way sometimes but God has His reasons nga so i trust Him.

13.WAT ANNOYS U D MOST?
- Buses. Jeepneys. Schoolwork. KSP people.

A MEMORY OF ME...

2005-03-06T01:23:00.000+08:00

If you read this journal,
even if I don't speak to you often,
post a memory of me.
It can be anything you want.
It can be good or bad,
just as long as it happened.

Then post this to your journal.
See what people remember about you.

What Do You Think?

2005-03-06T00:47:00.000+08:00

I think i am

* simple, down-to-earth, friendly, religious, weird, and yes.. unique.

I think i am a

* good friend, a lazy student, a loving boyfriend, and a musician who's a work-in-progress.

I think I feel good when

* i feel that it's gonna be a good day.

I think I feel bad when

* i feel that i'm unproductive.

I think I am not supposed to

* hate life.

When I look at the mirror, i think

* i'm fat.

I think best when

* it is quiet.

I think i use

* a lot of things... toothbrush, ballpen, face towel, paper.. you name it.

I think i look my best wearing

* a shirt, jeans, and my rugged-looking chuck taylor sneakers

I think at the same wavelength with

* the birds and the bees...

I think life is

* beautiful. it should be.

I think i am lucky because

* i have a wonderful family, an amazing girlfriend, a great set of friends, and a God who loves me unconditionally

I think i am unlucky because

*people usually get the wrong impression of me,
but it's ok since i know that no one can please
everyone.

I think hapiness is

* a conscious choice, a state of mind, the feeling
of being content, and learning to appreciate every
blessing, finding order in chaos

I think knowledge is

* what makes the every person progress in life.

I think beauty is

*what every person in this world possesses.

I think love is

* a conscious decision; it is felt initially, but one
has to choose to sustain it.

I think relationships

* are needed. no man is an island (and i don't just
mean romantic relationships)

I think the opposite sex

* will always be intriguing.

I think people are

* people.

I think friends are

*cool.

I think this survey

* makes me think a lot.

lonely night

2005-03-05T20:57:00.000+08:00

good evening. it's been a while since i last posted here. sorry, i've been busy and sometimes boredom just doesn't give me the strength to post entries here. it's not that i don't want to me. the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak. well, now i'm writing stuff so yehey for me. hehehe.

lonely night tonight. my sister's attending the ateneo prom, my brother's in mindoro, my girlfriend's out with her cousins. yeah, i'm pretty much alone. my parents are doing something pa. hehe. oh well. i'll probably feel this way again come my birthday. on the day of my birthday, my sister's gonna be attending the xavier prom, my brother will be in tawi-tawi, and kat's gonna be in davao... lonely feeling... oh well..

i studied for eco today.. i read 3 chapters.. 2 more to go but tamad na, so tom nalang. plus, i'll be studying for polsci tom as well. hayyy stressful week coming up. i hope i'll survive it. school's beginning to suck... grr...

i'm missing kat bigtime today. i feel so lonely...

i'm gonna be 20 in 16 days... entering the 20s... my gosh... time flies by so fast. i can't even believe that in 16 days i'm not a teenager anymore. life really is fast. great.

i'm probably bumming the night away again. yeah.. i hate the feeling of loneliness. oh well..i guess it's just one of those nights.

i love you Kat.. i miss you *hug*

*12*

MANILA... MANILA...

2005-02-27T17:42:00.000+08:00

It's funny how a Spanish class requirement put me in a situation wherein i appreciated Quezon City even more.

The busy streets of Manila drove me crazy. Crazy jeeps. Crazy trikes. There were crazy people. Small roads. So many cars. Crazy. Crazy. Crazy. A busy place. Good thing i don't live there.

i love Quezon City. i love it even more now that i have fully experienced driving around the busy streets of Manila. Yes, i love Q.C. and i love driving around the place! Hehe.

quotable quotes:
"Pray hard! It works!"

"To Quezon City : <-------- " - hehehehe!

Okay.. Last 3 weeks of school= STRESS/HELL/STRESS/STRESS.

Kaya toh. yeah. haha.

i miss you Kat.. *hug*

*12*

THE HIGHER FORM SPEAKS

2005-02-23T17:43:00.000+08:00

It was a pretty hot day today! i hate it when the sun is really trying to feel its way on you. it's so irritating.. but it's okay. i'm happy anyway :)

school's almost over. yes!!! but i still have a lot of requirements to submit.. stressful and hell week is coming up.. that's next week. what do i have for next week? here ya go:

final fil group paper
psy101 scrapbook
spanish album
possible polsci long quiz

how about next next week?
psy101 4th long test
eco102 3rd long test
polsci orals
polsci paper

so i guess i have two hell weeks pala.. great.and shempre i cannot miss american idol. i'm religiously watching that show. who am i rooting for? the rockers of course - bo bice and constantine maroulis!

oh well.. time to study!

i miss you kat! i love you!! *hug*

*12*

TRUE

2005-02-21T21:58:00.000+08:00

Ive waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So i wont hide
Its time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life ive waiting
This is true

I don't need much words to speak. God knows what my heart desires.

Psalm 37:4 "Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart."

Lord, speak to me. You know my desires. My honest desires. You know i want my prayers to be answered. I'm putting my trust and faith in You like i have always done before.

All i can do is wait.

*12*

RANDOM THOUGHTS

2005-02-18T23:32:00.000+08:00

- I miss Kat.. she's sleeping right now
- FTSB was fun today!
- tinatamad nakong mag-aral
- had a very interesting experience while ordering food at Wendy's kanina...
- Field trip tomorrow! yey yey!
- American Idol season 4... go Constantine! Rockers rule!
- One of these days Alden will finally admit na idol niya ako..wehehehe!
- Hola! Que tal? Bien gracias! y tu? Bien! :)
- Antok nako!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- I love Kat *12*
- sorry for not playing sa Love Ko 2..
- The world needs love.. love sweet love
- You're all i want *12*

*12*

COOL THOUGHT..

2005-02-13T22:29:00.000+08:00

Aphrodite/Eros

?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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02/12/05 = 9

2005-02-13T00:36:00.000+08:00

happy 12, kat! :)the 9 months we have shared as a couple is so amazing and i know we still have a lifetime to come. :) thank you for loving me for who i am... thank you for everything. i love you baby :) *hug*

the phantom of the opera was such a beautiful movie. amazing cinematography, amazing directing, and the whole movie was so dramatic. hands down. amazing. i love the soundtrack! here's one of my favorites and i'm sure this is one of your favorites as well of the soundtrack:

Phantom Of The Opera - All I Ask of You Lyrics
RAOUL
No more talk
of darkness,
Forget these
wide-eyed fears.
I'm here,
nothing can harm you -
my words will
warm and calm you.
Let me be
your freedom,
let daylight
dry -your tears.
I'm here,
with you, beside you,
to guard you
and to guide you . . .
CHRISTINE
Say you love me
every
waking moment,
turn my head
with talk of summertime . . .
Say you need me
with you,
now and always . . .
promise me that all
you say is true -
that's all I ask
of you . . .
RAOUL
Let me be
your shelter,
let me
be your light.
You're safe:
No-one will find you
your fears are
far behind you . . .
CHRISTINE
All I want
is freedom,
a world with
no more night . . .
and you
always beside me
to hold me
and to hide me . . .
RAOUL
Then say you'll share with
me one
love, one lifetime . . .
Iet me lead you
from your solitude . . .
Say you need me
with you
here, beside you . . .
anywhere you go,
let me go too -
Christine,
that's all I ask
of you . . .
CHRISTINE
Say you'll share with
me one
love, one lifetime . . .
say the word
and I will follow you . . .
BOTH
Share each day with
me, each
night, each morning . . .
CHRISTINE
Say you love me . . .
RAOUL
You know I do . . .
BOTH
Love me -
that's all I ask
of you . . .
(They kiss)
Anywhere you go
let me go too . . .
Love me -
that's all I ask
of you . .
(CHRISTINE starts from her reverie)
CHRISTINE
I must go -
they'll wonder where I am . . .
wait for me, Raoul!
RAOUL
Christine, I love you!
CHRISTINE;
Order your fine horses!
Be with them at the door!
RAOUL
And soon you'll be beside me!
CHRISTINE
You'll guard me, and you'll guide me . . .

Valentine's day is coming up! yey yey i'm excited! *12*

to the Soac na Soac women's basketball team (kat, ar, anix, ericka, sel, grace, niq, grace, marian, edith, tina, and nina): you girls are amazing! you gave your 110% in each game and i am proud of you all! i am proud of you kat *kiss* ! :)

to the men's basketball team (me, jr, jino, baste, anton, pat, pj, dex, tantan, and alden): we have one game left..against KAINGIN. let's give everything we've got in that game! win or lose, it's SPEED we choose! go SPEED!!!!

to the volleyball team (not familiar with the players): you still have a game on tuesday! ROCK ON VOLLEYBALL TEAM! show them what SPEED is made of! i'm proud of you all!

it's time to hit the sack.. i'm sooooo sleepy na talaga.. :)

i love you kat, happy 12! *hug*

*12*

HELL WEEK'S OVER

2005-02-04T23:36:00.000+08:00

Finally, hell week's over.. even though i don't really know if i did okay in my exams, i don't really care much at this point. i'll worry about my grades when i see my scores. right now, i'm just relieved that it's all over. after school kat and i went to eyrie to eat, then we went to UP to watch a play entitled "Komedi". It was really really funny.. it contained 3 small acts. 'twas really funny and i was sure the people were entertained. even though some of the jokes were green, i guess okay lang... there's a reason naman lagi dba? and i have to make a reaction paper pa regarding one of the acts. so i have to choose one which i think i can write a lot of things about. the play started around 7pm then ended around 9pm. after that, i brought kat home then i went home narin.

i miss my baby. i'm missing her so much right now. i wanna see her na ulit. i wanna bond with her na ulit... i love you Kat. *hug*

*12*

IT'S COMING...

2005-02-04T07:38:00.000+08:00

goodmorning. yes, i can feel it much more right now. spanish orals, fil quiz, eco exam, and polsci exam... truly a busy sched ahead of me which starts at 1030.. this is so fun. ehehe.

funny..i am not worried. i do hope that's a good thing.

i have to say i admired how a.r., sel, anix, ericka, and my girlfriend played their hearts out yesterday during the soac na soac basketball game against Atsca. they were the first five..and the ONLY five. i am proud of them a lot!

i'm proud of you Kat :) i love you :) *hug*

*12*

hasta luego :)

ONE BIG QUESTION

2005-02-02T23:00:00.000+08:00

SO... SINONG STRESSED?????????

HA??????????????????????????????????

..okay...tama na... relax na ulit.

*12*

NEARING FRIDAY: THE CALL TO LAUGHTER. YES... THAT'S STRESS.

2005-02-02T08:22:00.000+08:00

okay.. friday's almost there... 3 exams to worry about... especially eco and polsci.. my progress? eco: finished reading chapter 13, half-way there for chapter 14... and i have 3 more chapters to go.. polsci? none as of now, and i have 4 articles to read plus around 5 articles in the 1987 constitution.. how great right? right.. stressed? i don't know.. i'm laughing. sign of stress? perhaps. hahaha. let's all laugh. HAHA. come on. HAHA. yeah... great....

but i have to remain positive.. i can do it.. i have God.. i'll be alright.. i have my girlfriend's prayers.. i'll be fine. after this week, i'll feel much better. yeah. you can count on that.

i love you Kat. :) *hug*

*12*

TOMORROW....

2005-01-31T22:25:00.000+08:00

okay this is how it goes. tomorrow i'll be having my psy exam. and i need to get at least 71/100. great.

on friday i have three exams: spanish orals, eco exam, polsci exam. but i need to focus more on eco and polsci. i HAVE to pass eco. i HAVE to pass polsci. really.. i need to get high scores. really. can i do it? hopefully. Lord, help me.

good news. my 9am class, which is theo, will not exist tomorrow. what does that mean? yeah..you guessed it. Free Cut. hehehe!

tomorrow should be a great day. it has to be a great day. let the flowers bloom and let the fresh air surround my whole being. i shall smile. :)

i love you kat. :) *hug*

*12*

MORNING

2005-01-31T08:41:00.000+08:00

it's school again and i am pretty much stressed with the load i have. and i have to catch up on certain subjects. it's hard but i know i can do it. yeah.. the adrenaline rush is there. i know i'm a crammer...sorry but it gives me that rush. oh well.. hopefully things will be okay. i just need to trust God that He'll be with me. that He'll take good care of me. yeah...i trust You Lord.

i'm praying for my girlfriend's tita right now. she has high blood and i do hope she'll be fine soon. Lord, please heal her. Kat, keep praying okay? i love you and i'm here for you... *hug*

i love you Kat. *hug*

*12*

REALITY

2005-01-30T22:00:00.000+08:00

what do i have for this week?

MON - Fil quiz
TUES - Psy101 exam
FRI - Eco102 exam, pos100 exam

right... hell week? you bet. this is crazy.. i'm a crammer and this is driving me nuts. i should have started studying a lot today but i went out with my family.. it is a sunday day and it's family day.. oh well..

the Lord is my strength.. Phil 4:13

God bless everyone.

i love you Kat. *hug*

*12*

SHOW YOU LOVE..

2005-01-26T23:21:00.000+08:00

Speak- say the words that no one else will ever say
Love- love like the world we know is over in a day

I'm gonna show you love in every language
I'm gonna speak with the words that need no form
I'm gonna give you what you never had before

You're beautiful and I am weakened by the force of your eyes
So shine bright to separate the truth from the lies
I'm gonna show you love

I'm gonna show you love in every language
I'm gonna speak with the words that need no form
I'm gonna give you what you never had before

*12*

HIGH

2005-01-25T22:54:00.000+08:00

Obviously, this has been a great day for me. After taking the Theo exam which really burned my brains out, my school day was officially done. hehehe. yeah.. i decided to bond with kat and we really had a fun time hanging out! first we went to her house to get her id pics, then had lunch in eyrie where we had a blast taking pictures even if my face looks so big in every pic! hahahaha ok lang.. i admit naman na i'm a chubby guy.. i had liempo while kat had pasta. then we had chocolate overload for dessert! yumyum! yeah... haha. bonded more the whole afternoon just enjoying each other's company to the fullest, went back to ateneo around 7pm to get my stuff in the speedroom. we still found koi and teddi bumming around in the room, chatted with them for awhile, then we headed to mcdo to grab some fries, cokefloat and mcflurry! we again tried taking pictures and my face still looked sooo big.. hayyy.. the camera doesn't like me. hehehe! i brought her home around 7:45pm then i headed home!

kat was extra sweet today. i really loved it. :) i know she has her 'cold' days, but now i know she also has her 'high' days, hence the title of this entry. she is so amazing and beautiful. she never fails to make me stare at her and admire her beauty. loving her is a great feeling and i know we're a cute couple. hehehe. :) c'mon guys, agree with this.. kat and i are cute together! :) yeah..she's really special and i'm going to take good care of her. i love you kat!

i've found all i've waited for and i could not ask for more...*hug*

*12*

SCHOOL IS NOT MY FRIEND

2005-01-23T23:23:00.000+08:00

I'm done for the night! I did my Spanish paper na! i tried to study narin for theo! i worked on my part pa sa filipino report namin tomorrow. AND WHAT'S DUE ON WEDNESDAY? Polsci paper/Bonus for an essay writing competition which is at least 6 pages! now tell me.. is this fun?? i don't think so! School is not fun so school is not my friend!

Now if you want me to be optimistic... i can tell you this: yes you have to work your ass off in school so that you can have good grades and so that you'll have a better chance in getting a good job in the future. yes yes.. it takes a lot of hardwork! okay... shoot.

another week of school and i'm getting stressed. people, are you all stressed? i know you guys would agree. oh well.. steady lang...

i miss you Kat. i love you.. *hug*

*12*

after the polsci exam, i shall sing "I DID MY BEST, BUT I GUESS MY BEST WASN'T GOOD ENOUGH.."

2005-01-21T07:49:00.000+08:00

In all honesty, i never thought i'd click with the Speed family. i remember last school year i joined Speed just for NSTP purposes. I never really hung out in the room that much. i'd just leave my bag and go the sec benches and hang out with my high school friends. i never really thought i'd ever be attached to Speed. well, true enough, i thought wrong. during the latter part of my freshman year, i suddenly found myself hanging out in the Speedroom, talking and bonding with the people hanging out there as well. Little did i know i was becoming a true speple who will be loyal to the Speed family. And of course, i was able to know Kat more upon deciding the hang out more in the Speedroom, and look at what it brought us: a strong relattionship that keeps on growing as the days go by. I love you Kat!:)

Today i can say i have become friends with people whom i never really thought i'll have good chemistry with. Here goes the list of those speples:

Alden - the hermit who decided to join the Speed civilization. Initially thought of him as the quiet type, it turned out his uniqueness complemented the diversity of the Speed family. True enough, the hermit has made an impact, and he has found an idol in Speed. No.. not Koi. i know it's me. hahahahaha.

Anton - this guy is cool. At first we weren't really talking and all but eventually we started to bond and i know we're sharing something unique: Atenean pride that we have acquired since Prep.

Ericka - i only noticed her during the Plansem last summer. She was quiet during that time and i didn't know if i'd ever get to be friends with her. but BOOM. look at her today. Speed's official laughing machine. Like everyone else, i have shared a laughing session with her. she's a great person with a very unique personality and i know Speed ain't Speed without Ericka!

Dex - this guy is cool! "Horacio" is everybody's buddy in Speed. He has cool stories to tell lagi and he's a great addition to the Speed family. Dexiesexie nga daw sha.. hahaha!

Niq - yes yes.. idol ko nga sha at HINDI si Koi. hahahaha. i can't make Niq mad kasi she's gonna break my nose.. she's the MAN-BEATER! But really, Niq's a great person and i thought talaga at first na mataray shang tao. hehehehe hindi pala. pero hindi pwedeng asarin... i can't afford a broken nose!

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oh well... that's it for now. i love my Speed family and i know we'll have more fun experiences in the future!

i love my girlfriend! i love you Kat! i won't let you down..*hug* i love you!

*12*

WHEN THE WORLD ENDS, YOU'RE COMING WITH ME...

2005-01-20T22:38:00.000+08:00

When the world ends
Collect your things
You're coming with me
When the world ends
You tuckle up yourself with me
Watch it as the stars disappear to nothing....

...When the world ends
You're gonna come with me
We're going to be crazy
Like a river bends
We're going to float
Through the criss cross of the mountains
Watch them fade to nothing
When the world ends
You know that's what's happening now
I'm going to be there with you somehow, oh...

...Oh, but don't you worry about a thing
No, 'cause I got you here with me
Don't you worry about it
Just you and me

...Oh, when the world ends
We'll be burning one
When the world ends
We'll be sweet makin love
Oh, you know when the world ends
I'm going to take you aside and say
Let's watch it fade away, fade away
And the world's done
Ours just begun
It's done
Ours just begun...

...I'ma to love you
I'ma to love you
When the world ends
I'ma to hold you
When the world is over
We'll just begin...

...Where you are, that's where I wanna be
Through your eyes are all the things I wanna see
In the night you are my dream, you're everything to me

...You're the love of my life and the breath in my prayers
Take my hand and lead me there
What I need is you here

...I can't forget the taste of your mouth
From your lips all the heavens pour out
I can't forget when we are one
With you alone I am free

...Everyday, every night, you alone are the love of my life

...We go dancing in the moonlight
With the starlight in your eyes
We go dancing till the sunrise
You and me, we're gonna dance, dance, dance...

*12*

THOUGHTS

2005-01-20T21:36:00.000+08:00

fitness walking keeps me healthy... kahit konti. yeah.. i know i've been eating a lot lately. ang sarap kumain eh.. but yeah i know i need exercise din to stay healthy. Lord grant me that strength.

Kat and i tried World Chicken kanina for lunch. it's near World Topps. It's a cool place with egg seats. The food was delicious but kinda expensive. oh well, still.. it's a nice place. i know we'll come back there to eat. :)

polsci exam tomorrow. after hearing Makaw tell me it's hard, i'm not really looking forward to the test na, but i wanna get over it narin. the readings are abusive to my young and growing mind. the technical terms regarding governance, state, booty capitalism and everything related to politics really are driving me crazy. it's not funny at all. our teacher even told us the test will be easy. YEAH. RIGHT. MAYBE FOR HER.

i'll never stop walking this path. i'm loving every second of it.

i love you kat. *hug*

*12*

STROLLER'S THOUGHTS EARLY IN THE MORNING

2005-01-19T08:51:00.000+08:00

Good morning people of the world. it's around 9am right now and i'll be taking a bath in awhile and get ready for school. much has happened yesterday.. reality check.. self check.. yeah..and i know i've learned a lot from all the experiences i had yesterday. yeah. the Lord really has unique ways of giving me lessons in life. :)

reality check: even if i'm not the richest man in the world, i know i'm still living a decent, normal life. i live in a house with 2 cars, and i go to a private school, one of the best in the country. i may be a middle class dude living in this poverty-dominated country but sometimes i'm guilty of forgetting about those poor people who do not have the money to live such a decent life as well. heck, if i were bill gates, i'll pour out my heart to helping the poor people in the world. if i were the richest man in the Philippines, i'll pour out my heart to the Filipino people who need help and i'll make sure they'll have a decent life, a life that would look safe and secure.. no worries. just happiness and peace that makes everything beautiful. i'll make sure the poor children will be given the proper education. they need to learn as well. they're people hungry to learn and children are the future right? let's not take away the bright future that awaits the country. yes, this has been very emotional for me. Lord, i want to help. please answer my desire.

self check: i know i have qualities in me that really get out of hand sometimes. i know i'm mababaw. i know i'm seloso. i know i'm praning. i'm sorry for that. i know i have my kalabuan din sometimes. i know i'm weird sometimes. but what i do know is that certain things are clear in my life... really really clear.

this is really really clear to me: i love you and i'll never give up on you.

i'm off to school. wait.. i'll take a bath pa pala. hehehe.. enjoy the day, everyone!

i love you kat :)

*12*

THE SADDEST 10 MINUTES OF MY LIFE...

2005-01-18T21:30:00.000+08:00

today, i just experienced the saddest 10 minutes of my life. and i know ericka, alden and nina would agree. i don't feel like sharing all the details here in my blog but let's just say that i also experienced the quickest turn of emotions... one minute we're laughing, and the next thing you know we're all dumbfounded, shocked and we just can't speak. combine it with a heavy heart and tears, the saddest ten minutes of my life just shocked my world..for ten minutes only of course... 10 minutes nga eh.. going back, i'm just saying it was truly a memorable experience. i don't know what happened to that lady after that brief encounter but i just hope everything's okay. i DO HOPE everything's okay.

once again, i'm disappointed with myself today. i feel stupid whenever i let my kababawan affect me and whenever i make a big deal out of things i shouldn't worry about. i am disappointed with myself really.. but everything's okay now... yeah.. :)

i love you kat.. *hug*

*12*

stroller personified

2005-01-16T21:32:00.000+08:00

i look at the time. 9:40 pm. too early to hit the sack. well in my case perhaps 'cause my body's used to sleeping late every night. so much for beauty sleep right? hehehe.

i'm done studying for filipino. yes i had too many names and terms to memorize and it sucks.. but it'll do. yeah.

so let's see.. i have this upcoming test in polsci this wed and i do believe i have to read more than a hundred pages. 6 different articles. good luck to me.

yeah.. lalakarin ko lang toh. stroller naman ako dba? steady lang.

i love you kat *hug*

*12*

.!..!..!..!

2005-01-16T01:23:00.000+08:00

cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd
waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the
hmuan mnid. Aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at
Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht
oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoatnt
tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be in the rghit
pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can
sitll raed it wouthit a porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae the
huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef,
but the wrod as a wlohe. Amzanig huh? yaeh and
I
awlyas thought slpeling was ipmorantt!

great balls of silence.. then you scream

2005-01-11T22:27:00.000+08:00

i speak of few words, yet my mind is filled with endless thoughts and dreams. sometimes people think i am nothing but a person with a brain that's been nowhere in sight. dumb in short. it hurts, yet i fight back such judgment. my artistic side has dominated my entire humanity, and it's been the area of where success leads me. i am not good with subjects such as filipino, economics, and political science as these things do not complement my way of thinking. in life, you're good at certain things while you have trouble with others. that's how the cookie crumbles. that's how the ball rolls. we cannot change that. yet, i fight these weaknesses. i'm working my ass off just to understand polsci, fil, and eco. i'm working my ass off to give out the best effort i can give at all times in all situations in life. this sem has really put the pressure on me.Life has been testing me. but i am no weakling. you can write that down if you want. if you think i'm dumb, well you thought wrong.

silence does not mean boredom; it means something else.

tomorrow kat and i are officially 8 months in. she has been a blessing in my life and i thank the Lord every single day for giving me an amazing woman like her. she just leaves me speechless and amazed. incredible. i love you kat.. i love you so much! Happy 12! :)

*12*

the night is young

2005-01-08T01:13:00.000+08:00

i just got home from a gimmick with the speples.
alden would pretty much tell how the gimmick went. hehehe :)

kat played basketball kanina. it was really sexy.. sobra...

thanks for tonight speples.

i love you kat. *12*

who's your original prend?

2005-01-06T23:48:00.000+08:00

i'm done for the night. i don't know what's gonna happen to my exam in fil14 tom. i'll do my best that's for sure. Lord, help me. please help me...

tonight's been a thinking session again for me. deep thoughts were entering my mind and i couldnd't stop thinking. yeah i reflected on my qualities.. the good and the bad. my strengths and my weaknesses. then i thought about God's goodness. He gave me Kat. Wonderful blessing talaga, walang tatalo. top of the line. I love you baby! You have me. :) *12*

today's a good day. walang sabit. it's been fun, adventurous, and interesting. :)

how bout you guys? musta araw nyo?:)

i love you kat :) mwah :)

*12*

hello reality

2005-01-04T17:11:00.000+08:00

oh yeah... tomorrow means it's back to work. back to school. back to the studying. it's been hitting me a lot of times this day... hahaha. my current grades? not that good... i have to give extra effort once school starts... yeah.. TOMORROW.

i was watching tv kanina and i suddenly found myself glued to star movies. it was a movie about a boy band looking for a frontman.. only to find out these boy band members are weirdos... they have this ritual... and they kill people. sucky movie, but i enjoyed it anyway. why? nothing to do here at home.

i have sipon right now and it doesn't feel good. wala lang. i can't breathe well.. hahaha. i need some air. wala lang.

hey, it's my brother's birthday tomorrow. i don't know what to give him. hehehe i don't have money naman. i'll just give him a hug. that's brotherly love right? yeah.. my brother and i will bond soon. that has been my desire since i realized we weren't really bonding. wala lang. time for a change right? i'm dying to tell him stuff about my relationship with kat, and i do want to know what's going on in his life. yeah.. wala lang.

i love you kat. i really love you. i know we'll still have trials along the way, but what keeps me strong is my faith in God and my faith in you. we'll go through everything together. we'll be alright. we'll make it. :) never lose faith okay? stay strong. i love you. :)

*12*

FAITH

2005-01-04T01:13:00.000+08:00

"I can do ALL THINGS through CHRIST who STRENGTHENS me."
-Philippians 4:13

yes.. God can make it happen. :)

Thank you Lord for being the greatest source of strength :) I love You :)

Thank you baby for loving me. :)

I love you Kat. :)

*12*

MORE THAN SATISFIED

2005-01-03T16:08:00.000+08:00

i found all i've waited for.

and i could not ask for more.

i love you.

*12*

THE STROLLER'S PATH

2005-01-02T17:22:00.000+08:00

i can't believe that christmas break is almost over. come january 5, i'm back to studying, writing papers, taking quizzes, welcoming long exams, and greeting homeworks. but also, i'll be able to see a lot of people again, especially the speples so that's something i'm looking forward to.

again, i greet you all a happy new year. 2005 will obviosuly consist of new challenges and tests in life, and i know i have to be prepared for that. a stroller never leaves his path, and certainly i won't. the wanderlust will continue to urge me on. i'm still walking the stroller's path. i have learned a lot about myself the past year. i know my strengths and weaknesses in a much clearer perspective.

i don't know what 2005 has in store for me. however, i do know i won't face 2005 alone.

i love you kat. *12*

back from batangas

2005-01-01T18:52:00.000+08:00

hey... im back from batangas. we went there along with our relatives. happy new year. i have nothing much to say though. wala lang. we stayed at Ponte Fino Hotel.. it's like Manor Hotel in Baguio, although smaller. i loved the bed... it was great for sleeping. really cozy. i loved the infinity pool they had there. the food was awesome although we only ate there once because it was expensive. we had to go to SM most of the time to eat at the food court. cheap food is nice... hehe. so there... i mostly bummed sa room to watch tv. and yeah...i gained weight. so i have to control na.

that's it for now.

happy new year again everyone.

*12*

roll with the music

2004-12-27T01:31:00.000+08:00

i'm a rockstar in the making.

i shall make an impact someday soon.

jeff lucas: a rockstar in the making.

by the way, the japanese band asian kung fu generation rocks. check them out.

goodnight, world. :)

i love you kat. :)

*12*

new background, same old stroller

2004-12-27T01:19:00.000+08:00

my background's colorful now... hahaha. my previous background looked so gloomy, and i wanted to change so that! so now it looks much better.. :) new background, same old stroller. yes. haha.

now that christmas is over, the new year is what people are most probaby waiting for this time around. sure, the holiday season isn't really over yet. some people are still doing some post-shopping galore for sure. but when saturday comes, it's already 2005. another year for all of us to get older, depending on our birthdays. for me, i'll be 20. yes. TWENTY. not a teenager anymore. in three months time i'll be part of the 20s group. time does fly by so fast. haha but it's okay. how are you all doing? i just hope everyone's fine! i hope you guys pigged out during the family reunions! yeah! pig out! well.. i did pig out. i gained a few pounds. it's okay... i just need a little workout. :) hehehe!

this year's aguinaldo parade wasn't too flashy. not like the past years where i averaged almost more than two thousand, father and mother's side combined. this year, konti lang... but it's okay. christmas is not about the money anyway. :) thank you titos and titas for the pamasko!

i love you kat :)

*12*

i will never leave you, i will not let you down

2004-12-26T01:17:00.000+08:00

so you're standing on the ledge
it looks like you might fall,
so far down, or maybe you, were thinking about jumping
but you could have it all, if you learned a little patience,
but though i cannot fly, i'm not content to crawl
so give me a little credit, have in me a little faith
i wanna be with you forever, but tomorrow's not too late

but it's always too late when you've got nothing,
so you say
and you should never let the sun set on tomorrow,
before the sun rises today

if i am, another waste of everything you've dreamed of
i will let you down
if i am, only here to watch you as you suffer
i will let you down

so you're walking on the edge,
and you wait your turn to fall,
but you're so far gone that you don't see the hands upheld to catch you
and you could find a fault,
in the heart that you've been handed
but though you cannot fly, you're not content to crawl

and it's always too late when you've got nothing,
so you say
and you should never let the sun set on tomorrow,
before the sun rises...

if i am, another waste of everything you've hoped for
i will let you down
if i am, only here to watch you as you suffer
i will let you down

so you're standing on the ledge,
it looks like you might fall.......

if i am, another waste of everything you've dreamed of
i will let you down (i will let you down)
if i am, only here to watch you as you suffer
i will let you down

the answers we find,
are never what we had in mind
so we make it up as we go along
we don't talk the dreams, i won't let go tomorrow
we won't make those promises that we can't keep.......

i will never leave you,
i will not let you down

...i love you *12*

good day.

2004-12-25T13:36:00.000+08:00

good day everyone. enjoy Christmas. :)

*12*

i lie awake...i drive myself crazy

2004-12-25T02:38:00.000+08:00

i'm not yet sleepy. my mind is awake... my eyes are wide-open... i'm just not yet sleepy. i am tempted to be one with my bed already, but no... i think i'll keep myself awake and kickin' for at least an hour.

i can't sleep. let me sleep? i can't. sleep jeff... sleep jeff.... nah... i won't sleep yet. i still feel bloated. gosh i ate too much.

that's right... i'm not yet sleepy. my brother's still awake. i don't know if my parents and my sister hit the sack already. as for me, i don't want to hit it yet. let me just hit myself instead. what do you think? sounds good. tastes even better. yeah. right. joke.

merry christmas.

*12*

.

2004-12-25T02:25:00.000+08:00

bummer.

yeah.

merry christmas everyone.

*12*

merry christmas to you

2004-12-24T14:56:00.000+08:00

christmas is just 9 hours away. i just like it whenever christmas season is in the air. i always sense that peaceful feeling that can really brighten up even a boring day. yes, christmas is a lot of things rolled into one - reunions, food, gifts, songs, laughter, friends, love, family, peace, etc. christmas brings that joy to everyone's life that can help you shrug off your problems even for awhile. that's the power of christmas. smiles will be dancing and flapping their wings like angels enjoying a yuletide party. christmas is a great way to end a year and welcome another year of ups and downs. the past year has been interesting and now is a good time to reflect on the things we've accomplished, suffered, learned and cherished this 2004. and of course, we're all better individuals now right? we have a new year to boost up our maturity as persons, and the Lord will surely guide us. Of course, christmas is really about Christ, and now is the time to think of your relationship with the Man above. How's your relationship with God? Is it growing, or is it a bit rocky? Well, with Christ in your life, anything is possible. miracles can happen. let me ask you, how can you walk on water if you haven't even stepped out of the boat? can you really say you've done things for God? we all know we're not perfect people. sure, we forget about God once in awhile because of our busy schedules, but it's nice to make sure we try our best efforts to say short prayers, talk to God, go to Church or even read the Bible. we were made to have fellowship with Him..let's not waste that opportunity. never forget God. if He's the center of our lives, then our hopes and dreams will come true. Just like what i read in the book of Psalms, "delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart". that's something we all could reflect on this christmas. Merry Christmas everybody. :)

I love you Kat. :)

*12*

3rd day

2004-12-23T23:52:00.000+08:00

gosh..this has been my third bumming-around-the-house day... i can't do this any longer... i'll gain weight big-time.. haha.. nooooo..hahaha... i don't wanna be super fat nanaman... i can't live with that...haha

oh well... my parents are watching the notebook right now... very senti mode.. wala lang...

i love you kat :) you're amazing.. :)

*12*

tv + internet = perfect combination if you wanna bum around at home

2004-12-22T23:13:00.000+08:00

today was really an UBE! No, not an Ultimate Bonding Experience. rather, it was an Ultimate Bumming Experience. The TV was on for almost the whole day. i opened it at around 9am to watch the Amazing Race via satellite and until now it's still on. and i'm online! what a perfect combination. it couldn't get any better than this. for around 5 hours i was even home alone. my parents and brother were in a party while my sister went to a concert. i was home alone (well..not exactly.. there's the maid and my dog, but i know you guys get my point..right?) as i said for almost 5 hours but i didn't find it boring at all. in fact, i found it peaceful. i had the house to myself and it wasn't noisy. yeah i had fun being alone at home. i remember the time i was home alone for a week because my family went to Bacolod for vacation along with my relatives. i didn't go with them 'cause i was involved in church commitments i couldn't let go off that time.

the year's almost over. what can i say? it's been an interesting year. i had my ups and downs. i've learned a lot from everything i have experienced throughout the year. God has taught me a lot of things. God has also showered me with his blessings; He has been faithful and i cannot thank Him enough for that. Knowing that God can really change Your life just keeps me pressing on despite facing the challenges i went through this year. God taught me how to be more prayerful. God taught me to depend on Him even more. God taught me that my faith in Him will not be sheer disappointment. True to His promises, God was always there for me and He will forever remain faithful. My Lord and Savior has given me extra strength to face the coming year. Thank You Lord for everything. Thank You for all the blessings You've given me. This year, You have given me one of the most amazing blessings You have ever given me....the best gift i ever received this year...and that's Kat. Lord, thank You for giving me Kat. She has been an inspiration and also a source of strength in my life. She has made me a better person and i am really blessed by her. Everything has been much sweeter 'cause she has put more colors in my life. thank You Lord! Thank You soooo much.

I love you Kat. i thank the Man above for you EVERY SINGLE DAY. Words cannot really express how much i truly value you. I love you so much and you know i will take good care of you. I'm taking good care of you. I always want to be at my best for you. i want to be the best that i can be for you always. i want you to be proud of me. i don't wanna be a disappointment baby. We have a new year ahead of us. We'll go through 2005 together. we'll be alright. everything's going to be okay. God's gonna take care of us. :) i love you!

To my Speed friends - the speples! Man, you guys are one heck of a group! i thank the Lord for you guys; you are amazing. Last year, i wasn't really attached to the speples but this year, i found another home in the Speed family. love u all!

To my CCF friends - you guys have been great to me. Thank you for everything as well. you guys take good care of yourselves alright? more Jzone and Bible Studies to come!

To my family - well what can i say? i love my family! no need to explain further :)

anyway...it's been a good day naman. :) i miss my girlfriend. she's sleeping right now. i'll sleep na in awhile.

a stroller's path never stops... the journey continues. i'll keep walking. :)

i love you kat. :)

*12*

the night of smiles

2004-12-21T01:11:00.000+08:00

i smile as the moon showers me with its fervent light. i am enchanted by the stars' presence. this night has made me smile, and the smile hasn't left my face yet. i don't want it to leave. let me enjoy this moment. i speak of happiness and joy. such feelings bring out the best in me.

a stroller's path brings forth a lot of exciting things. challenges and tests to face. but a stroller never stops walking. i've got both feet on the ground. the wanderlust (if you don't know what this word means, it mean 'desire to travel') will urge me on.

christmas is five days away.. :) merry christmas people!

i love you kat :) mwah :)

*12*

hello

2004-12-20T16:22:00.000+08:00

i pretty much bummed almost the entire day.. i watched anacondas: hunt for the blood orchid and texas chainsaw massacre. and i ate peanuts...what a bummy day right? hehe

but it's okay. tonight i'll be heading to a party with my church friends and i'm bringing kat with me. :) yup, i'm sure it'll be fun!

i miss speed already! i hope to see you all soon. :)

i love you kat. :)

*12*

this day is suave.. :)

2004-12-19T09:10:00.000+08:00

goodmorning :) i had a great sleep last night.. :) not only that, i had a great saturday night.. :) yup.. i was all smiles.. :) ang saya talaga! yeaahhhh! hehe :)

i'll be going out with my family today. church then shop at market! market! yup... i like that place na. hehehehe! and i am so hungry right now.... can't wait for lunch!

finally, school's done for the year! christmas break na! but my goodness, i have to submit two papers on the first day of school next year. how sad. hahaha. oh well, i'll think about those papers come...january 2 or 3 or 4... hehehe. right now, i'm gonna enjoy the break, have fun, and feel the Christmas spirit in the air. :)

i love you kat. :) mwah :)

*12*

created to sing a tune

2004-12-18T23:40:00.000+08:00

Your Dominant Intelligence is Musical Intelligence

Every part of your life has a beat, and you're often tapping your fingers or toes.
You enjoy sounds of all types, but you also find sound can distract you at the wrong time.
You are probably a gifted musician of some sort - even if you haven't realized it.
Also a music lover, you tend to appreciate artists of all kinds.

You would make a great musician, disc jockey, singer, or composer.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

i say this

2004-12-18T13:48:00.000+08:00

life is beautiful. that's the way i see it. my outlook on life hasn't changed. when i make decisions, i'm sure of them. i may face challenges along the way, but i never back down. i keep fighting. yeah.

life is challenging. all i know is, when you let God lead the way, everything's gonna be fine. you don't really have to live for yourself. you live for God, and He's gonna put everything in place. When we all trust God completely, life will be really worth it, don't you think? like what i read in the famous book The Purpose-Driven Life... it's not about me. :) it's about God.

i love you Kat. Life with you is really a blessing coming from the Man above. i thank God for you every single day. :) i love you! i love you! i love you!

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. :)

*12*

i could not ask for more

2004-12-16T23:05:00.000+08:00

it's such an amazing feeling when you know someone values you so much. the feeling of being loved by someone will leave anybody flabbergasted at some point. yes..that amazing feeling will never die. it will not fade. the stars will continue shining. hopes and dreams will continue on living.

i was in a very emotional moment awhile ago. good emotional moment. love is real when you realize that your love for a certain person keeps getting stronger and stronger as the days go by.

i love you kat. :) thank you for everything :) mwah :)

*12*

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i'm practically done with school na for the year! no more exams! i just have to attend two classes tom but that's it! whoooooo! Christmas break na! :) merry Christmas guys! don't forget the true meaning of Christmas okay? :)

hey alden thanks for the 'tae' gift! hahahaha! bawi ako sa kabaitan mo!

if anyone is sad right now, cheer up.. :)

---------

kat, i love you so much :) te quiero tanto :)

*12*

espantoso

2004-12-14T23:33:00.000+08:00

ive got a spanish exam tomorrow and it will really kill me if i forget everything i have studied and memorized! grrrrr i need to pass this exam. i failed my first eco exam, i don't want to fail this one!!

on thurs, i'll be having my firt long exam in psy101! 3 chapters of MEMORIZATION AND UNDERSTANDING CONCEPTS. how nice.. hahaha. i'm about to break down.. hahahaha... joke...

i can do this. with God, anything's possible. i can reach the clouds.

i love you kat. :) i care about you so much. i love you. :)

*12*

hell week..... christmas na!

2004-12-12T23:19:00.000+08:00

yeah... hell week. i don't like it when it's hell week. hahaha.
this coming week: fil reporting, spanish exam, psy101 exam. yuh............

i'm hungry pa.. i already ate sweet corn... but i'm still hungry. oh well.. =/

i woke up early today, around 5am, for the "much awaited" fun run! hahaha believe me.. it wasn't fun at all. 5k? goodness.. our teacher told us that our class would run the 3k route but no.. when we got there they told us the guys will run 5k while the girls will run 3k... how sad... ahaha. well i finished the whole thing in 48 minutes... yeah.. two sets of running and the rest... FITNESS WALKING! hahahahaha!

oh well...

at least no more PE this week! next year na ulit!

advanced merry christmas and a happy new year! christmas is not about the gifts. it's not about the aguinaldos (money). it's not about the reunions. always remember that christmas is all about Jesus Christ. :) take care y'all!

i love you kat :)

*12*

seven

2004-12-12T08:19:00.000+08:00

kat and i are seven months in and it feels great... :) we've been through a lot.. we've been in situations wherein our patience was highly tested.. but here we are still standing and the joy of knowing that she loves me is one of the greatest feelings ever.. :)

happy 12 baby :) happy 7 months :) thank you for everything.. we've had our rough times but we overcame them and i know we're much much stronger now. i've been learning a lot and mas nakikilala pa kita. i may not be perfect, but you know i'm giving my best.. *hug* :)

i love you :)

*12*

thank you Lord for giving me the most beautiful, most wonderful and most amazing girlfriend in the whole wide world.. :) *12*

welcome to my life (part 2)

2004-12-09T23:42:00.000+08:00

Every trial is a call to prayer
Every burden is a bridge to the Lord
Every difficulty is an invitation to bend our knees...
that makes us a better person, a character changed by the Lord.

Yes Lord, make me a better person...

I love you Kat. *hug*

*12*

GREATNESS

2004-12-08T22:33:00.000+08:00

Greatness.

Do you sulk in its shadows or swim in its oceans?

..

..

..

..

i thought so. :)

*12*

welcome to my life...

2004-12-08T22:13:00.000+08:00

what you see is what you get.

see it?

unbelievable?

believe it.

welcome to my life.

heads up.

*12*

welcome to my emotional world part 3

2004-12-08T14:36:00.000+08:00

three things scare me the most, but i am not about to expose those fears here in my blog. i just can't escape those thoughts. from time to time they will enter my mind and the moment they do, i shall welcome back my emotional world.

but i am no quitter. i don't give up on things. i fight. i don't back down from a challenge. i seize the day, like there's no tomorrow. i'm living life to the fullest. i shall be remembered as a person who didn't allow the word "quit" to be part of his vocabulary. life can be tough, situations can be tough, but when you have God's strength, nothing's impossible.

i love you God. You never fail to love me unconditionally. thank You for all the blessings You've given me. Phil. 4:13 says "i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me". yes Lord, nothing is impossible. :)

i love you kat. i have already told you that a thousand times, but i'll never get tired of saying that to you. you're a major part of my life now, and i intend to keep it that way. you're my girlfriend, my bestfriend, my partner, my buddy, my everything. i thank God for you every single day. as the days go by, i will learn more about you and at the same you will learn more about me. our worlds have met, and now we're in a whole new world. :) i love you.

*12*

welcome to my emotional world (part 2)

2004-12-07T23:26:00.000+08:00

i am emotional. moody. moody. emotional. when something ignites the emotional wires in me, my emotional world starts to awaken. i begin to ride with the waves. when i become emotional, i begin to think. think, think, think. sometimes i cry but most of the time i just look worried. really worried. oh well... life indeed is a big challenge. a big test.

it's just like a baseball game. before you can do a home run, you have three bases to pass through. when you need to stop at a particular base, you have to make sure you're 'safe' and not 'out'.

it's just like a marathon. you have to keep running no matter what. you have to get to the finish line. you have to succeed. you just have to keep running.

welcome to my emotional world.

*12*

welcome to my emotional world

2004-12-07T21:48:00.000+08:00

Lying here with you
Listening to the rain
Smiling just to see the smile upon your face
These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive
These are the moments I'll remember all my life
I found all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more
Looking in your eyes
Seeing all I need
Everything you are is everything to me
These are the moments
I know heaven must exist
These are the moments I know all I need is this
I have all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more

I could not ask for more than this time together
I could not ask for more than this time with you
Every prayer has been answered
Every dream I have's come true
And right here in this moment is right where I'm meant to be
Here with you here with me

These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive
These are the moments I'll remember all my life
I've got all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more

I could not ask for more than the love you give me
'Coz it's all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more
I could not ask for more

-----

I love you.

*12*

second thoughts on alexander

2004-12-05T23:12:00.000+08:00

weird.. i was texting my girlfriend awhile ago about me finding the movie Alexander 'panget'. many disturbing scenes. haha. but when i was on my way home, i was having second thoughts... the movies wasn't really bad after all.

some people found the movie not worth it probably because they were expecting it to be somewhat like Troy. Even if i liked Troy, i still found it too Hollywood-ish.

Alexander was made in a different way. Even if it had an all-star cast - colin farrell, angelina jolie, anthony hopkins, val kilmer and jared leto - i didn't find the movie Hollywood-ish like Troy. Since i didn't expect it to be somewhat like Troy, i came to realize that it wasn't disappointing at all. Yeah i have to admit i found the movie ugly at first maybe because i was too fed up with the disturbing scenes. yeah.. hahaha but my mom explained to me na before it was just a normal thing and that homosexuality wasn't really an issue. oh well... interesting. i learned something about history. hahaha.

i guess i'm one of the few people who liked the movie even if it had so many disturbing scenes. yeah... oh well... it's my opinion anyway...

school again.. hayy.. kakatamad na... oh well... long tests are coming up... hahaha good luck.. hahahaha.

i'm not yet sleepy, but it's okay.

next sunday, kat and i are 7 months in. it's just an amazing feeling. :)

i love you kat :) mwah :) *hug*

*12*

have you found your treasure?

2004-12-04T23:42:00.000+08:00

when you hear the word 'treasure', what comes to mind? gold? money? treasure map?

probably.

a treasure is like a super valuable thing. some found theirs already and some are still searching.

a treasure is something you would want to keep for the rest of your life. you have to take good care of it. once you find it, don't lose it..ever. who would even dare throw away a treasure right? that would be a stupid move. a treasure can make you look rich, even without the cash. why? 'cause treasures don't equate to gold or cash all the time. it can have different forms. a treasure may appear in a treasure chest but it can also appear somewhere else. it doesn't always have to follow the whole i'm-a-pirate-looking-for-a-treasure-chest routine. you can find your treasure at home, in school, outside school, on people, in cars, in hobbies... and the list goes on.

i've already found my treasure. have you found yours? come on.. share your thoughts.

*12*

fitness first? really now?

2004-12-04T11:23:00.000+08:00

time for some work out... :)

i love you kat :) mwah :)

*12*

thoughts...

2004-12-03T13:08:00.000+08:00

i'm glad that typhoon yoyong's on its way out of the country. answered prayer talaga... thank you Lord.

today will probably be a bum-at-home-all-day kind of day. hahaha. walang gimik eh. my family's not planning anything at all. oh well... i'm okay with bumming around at home.

.......oh
..........hmmmm....
......yeah.....
.....oh well..........

yeah.. i just shared my thoughts. pretty clear right?

stroller out.

*12*

again i'm thinking about it...

2004-12-02T21:06:00.000+08:00

it never goes away. it will always be there. even if there will be times it would feel non-existent, at one point, you'd see it entering the picture once again. scared. that's what i'm feeling right now. you really can't have a smooth journey. there will be bumps along the road. challenges to face. yeah.

hindi sha nawawala. hindi ata sha pwedeng mawala.

ano..pag lumipas ba ang mga taon, poproblemahin ko parin ba sha? aba ewan.

yea.. hindi na nga naman kailangan ng competition... pero iba lang talaga yung feeling pagdating sa kanya. parang may competition talaga. i don't know.. siguro mashado lang akong takot... siguro praning lang... but pwede ring may rason para makafeel nang ganito dba? malay ko ba kung may hidden agenda pa sha.. then again, baka wala naman. sorry.. honest thoughts lang toh... i can't help it.

oh well.. all i know is that she loves me. i know she really does.

i love you.

*12*

Stroll...

the world is cute.

random thoughts

WITH COMPLETE SINCERITY

happy and i know it *12*

i don't want no drama...

uhhhh...

....

THOUGHTS

home alone

STRIKE TWO

the road....

NO TITLE IN MIND. COME TO THINK OF IT, I JUST PUT A TITLE.

the night is still young

random thoughts

....

friday? do i hear a friday?

bumming the day away

waiting patiently

all about the smiles

Thoughts...

12

the song

thoughts

stains

life is like a mango..random thoughts

thinking

badtrip

that four letter word

home alone

now comes the night...

...

random thoughts...

summer stroller...

summer mode na

ALERT:

THE LAST FEW DAYS OF SCHOOL

SURVEY....

A MEMORY OF ME...

What Do You Think?

lonely night

MANILA... MANILA...

THE HIGHER FORM SPEAKS

TRUE

RANDOM THOUGHTS

COOL THOUGHT..

02/12/05 = 9

HELL WEEK'S OVER

IT'S COMING...

ONE BIG QUESTION

NEARING FRIDAY: THE CALL TO LAUGHTER. YES... THAT'S STRESS.

TOMORROW....

MORNING

REALITY

SHOW YOU LOVE..

HIGH

SCHOOL IS NOT MY FRIEND

after the polsci exam, i shall sing "I DID MY BEST, BUT I GUESS MY BEST WASN'T GOOD ENOUGH.."

WHEN THE WORLD ENDS, YOU'RE COMING WITH ME...

THOUGHTS

STROLLER'S THOUGHTS EARLY IN THE MORNING

THE SADDEST 10 MINUTES OF MY LIFE...

stroller personified

.!..!..!..!

great balls of silence.. then you scream

the night is young

who's your original prend?

hello reality

FAITH

MORE THAN SATISFIED

THE STROLLER'S PATH

back from batangas

roll with the music

new background, same old stroller

i will never leave you, i will not let you down

good day.

i lie awake...i drive myself crazy

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merry christmas to you

3rd day

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